On my way

it's as black as it can get for me.

This morning was my fist experience of getting up fairly early and journeying to the different stores around town.i really enjoyed it, it was a memorable trip for my mom and i. i love shopping. as for my mom she could live without it. once a year is good enough for her. just kidding we shop more than once a year but we don't do it very often.
it's crazy what people do on black Friday. they wake up at unbelievable hours, wait in the cold, and bust through the doors that have always been there. YES, i understand that they do it because of the xboxes and the ipods and all those bargains. well... all i know is i don't think i will ever wake up that early. 5:30 is good enough for me. yea for all the stores that are out of the RED zone and into the BLACK.

This ugly world I dislike

I find it harder and harder every day to except it all. The president,
the culture, the stupid mindset of my peers, and all the junk that is
fed to the world by the TV. Oh how I wish I could just make it all
nice and clean cut but If that was meant to be the fall never would
have happened. Oh God give me grace and peace..... Or you could
just send Ronald Regan back. Lol jk to my followers:-) I am separated
from the rest of the world sometimes I wish I wasn't so surrounded by rules
but they keep me pure and safe so amen to that.

Ready or NOT The knellers are heading to China!!!!

On december 2nd we will be imbarking on a journey that will change our lif forever and ever. We will be going to china to pick up charlie boy. We painted his room and a baby shower is planed for this weedend, and i am so exited.Though i am torn in two though. because i have a play i would like to be in and i've already memorized the lines for my part. And if i go to china then bye bye fun play. But china is a once in a life time thing that i will never be presented with ever agian probably. I think of how God told us to take care of the widows and the orphans and going to china would be fulfilling that call of helping the unloved. We will most likly be going to the orphanage so i will be able to share my love with a ton of children who don't have that. i think im going to china. this is my first time on a plane, out of the country, and over the ocean. Oh God thank you for the courage that only comes from you. over the ocean and through the air to another country we go.

ni hoa boa boa

we will soon have charlie safe and sound in the comfort of our home by the end of the year. We sent our last piece of paper work off a week or two ago. yaaaaaaaaah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OVER AND OVER AND OVER

I don't know who or if anyone for that matter reads anything i send into a mass ocean of space. But if you do happen to read this, whoever you are. you've maybe felt like i feel sometimes. I get frustrated because of the constant repetition of life. You get up do devotions, have breakfast, do school, then free time, and maybe you do something exiting then you go to bed and start all over in the morning. BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA is how i feel sometimes. like what will i do today? will it be like yesterday just with a different date? oh God, you must understand how i feel if you don't please help me to figure out what my purpose in life is and to get on with whatever it is i was made for. i also have a yearning to walk out the back door and look up and see the stars. But we can not do that. sure you can see a twinkle here and there but not like you can in the country. when you are out in the country you look towards the city and you see a canopy of beaming light hanging over it. i pray for a content spirit. I know other people feel like this sometimes. I am not complaining about my life believe me. I don't see how i could possibly have a better life i just feel helpless i guess. Like i should be doing something to make a difference other than being a student.

sing like a bird

I have been praying alot lately because I'm not sure what God is calling me to do with ministry. I have a great voice God has placed in my chest and i feel he wants me to share it with the world. every one in my family except for my mom plays an instrument so we could be a great band together. I have an overwhelming love for orphan children in china. I think i will end up being a missionary for china as well. I have so many things god has placed on my heart i don't know where to start. I am learning Chinese as i have said before and i cant wait till i am fluent. i will be going to china before the new year and i am very exited!!!!!!!!!!!

sing like a bird

The Lord speaks to me. does he speak to you? and do you listen?

God is so good. Yesterday i got all my money together and my checks and i deposited them. I never really know where i should tithe to. yes i do tithe to my church but i feel like there is something more. Also yesterday we had a teacher come to our house and this person doesn't have much, but they give and make do with what they do have. We were having devotions last night, and God told me to tithe to this person. I thank God for speaking to me so soon. If you know someone who struggles with finical issues then i urge you to talk to God and ask him if you should give the needy.

You God's brand new idea

You Cod's brand new idea, is a great book by Max Lacado that i own. This book talks about how God created you to be very special in his sight. I encourage you to buy this book it is a very good investment. you can get it at christian book stores or online. The book is more like a devotional rather than a thick book with chapters. I love this book because it talks about liking you for you and not trying to be someone else. I hope you will look into getting this book to help you to understand better God and his CEATIVITY.

" I hate health food "

In March of this year i diagnosed my self allergic to gluten. which is bread, and anything with wheat flour in it. I make gluten free desserts and savory breads and usually my baking is not so popular with the guys in my family. My mom is very supportive and doesn't have a problem with my things very often. I like my gluten free things very much. anyways I created a pumpkin pie today with a Chebe Cinnamon crust. i hope it turns out likeable. Sometimes my brothers will enjoy my gluten free health food but most of the time... not. i will keep on my health foodie path whether the boys enjoy it or not.

God created little BROTHERS

This morning at 3:00 i was awakened very slowly by a continual beeping noise. At first i thought it was a noise my mind had mad up in my dream, but it just went on and on and on. I thought "maybe Jude's alarm clock is going off". so i waited about 20 minutes to see if he would turn it off. Then i got up and i heard it coming from my closet, but no under my bed there was an alarm clock purposely set under my bed as a practical joke played by my brothers. i unplugged it and went back to bed. I bet you can imagine how upset i was, actually i was very angry at my brother for keeping me up a whole hour with his stupid little annoying alarm clock. Oh brother, the trouble and mischief brothers can cook up just to see their sisters upset,
or maybe they just do things like that for pure fun, I'll never know for sure. I'm love my brother that's for sure but the things he does to upset me is what i don't love. My theory is that god placed my 10 year old brother in my life to rub off all my really sharp edges,
and to teach me Patience, love and alot of other valuable lessons. zia jian for now.

Ni Hoa

Wow, it's been a long time since i have written on my blog. Sorry about that. this past summer some very exciting things have happened.

I have always been a child of God but this summer i really learned how to depend on God, and to be happy with his will and not mine.

last October on the ninth we embarked on a very long, hard journey but it has finally almost come to an end. We are almost to the part in our adoption where we will be going to china soon. Ever since i was little i had a heart for orphan children in china.

my three year old brother's name is Yi-bin and his American name is charlie bin Steven. I will be going to china with my parents. Which is very surprising because i used to say " i will never go on an airplane. not even for my honey moon". But look at me now. In less then two months i will be flying half way across the world, over the ocean. God changes our hearts, and feelings almost always never matter. that's what my Father has been showing me daily. I am learning Chinese, which i have wanted to do for a very long time and i am finally doing it. zai-jian for now, ( goodbye )