On my way

it's as black as it can get for me.

This morning was my fist experience of getting up fairly early and journeying to the different stores around town.i really enjoyed it, it was a memorable trip for my mom and i. i love shopping. as for my mom she could live without it. once a year is good enough for her. just kidding we shop more than once a year but we don't do it very often.
it's crazy what people do on black Friday. they wake up at unbelievable hours, wait in the cold, and bust through the doors that have always been there. YES, i understand that they do it because of the xboxes and the ipods and all those bargains. well... all i know is i don't think i will ever wake up that early. 5:30 is good enough for me. yea for all the stores that are out of the RED zone and into the BLACK.

This ugly world I dislike

I find it harder and harder every day to except it all. The president,
the culture, the stupid mindset of my peers, and all the junk that is
fed to the world by the TV. Oh how I wish I could just make it all
nice and clean cut but If that was meant to be the fall never would
have happened. Oh God give me grace and peace..... Or you could
just send Ronald Regan back. Lol jk to my followers:-) I am separated
from the rest of the world sometimes I wish I wasn't so surrounded by rules
but they keep me pure and safe so amen to that.

Ready or NOT The knellers are heading to China!!!!

On december 2nd we will be imbarking on a journey that will change our lif forever and ever. We will be going to china to pick up charlie boy. We painted his room and a baby shower is planed for this weedend, and i am so exited.Though i am torn in two though. because i have a play i would like to be in and i've already memorized the lines for my part. And if i go to china then bye bye fun play. But china is a once in a life time thing that i will never be presented with ever agian probably. I think of how God told us to take care of the widows and the orphans and going to china would be fulfilling that call of helping the unloved. We will most likly be going to the orphanage so i will be able to share my love with a ton of children who don't have that. i think im going to china. this is my first time on a plane, out of the country, and over the ocean. Oh God thank you for the courage that only comes from you. over the ocean and through the air to another country we go.

ni hoa boa boa

we will soon have charlie safe and sound in the comfort of our home by the end of the year. We sent our last piece of paper work off a week or two ago. yaaaaaaaaah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OVER AND OVER AND OVER

I don't know who or if anyone for that matter reads anything i send into a mass ocean of space. But if you do happen to read this, whoever you are. you've maybe felt like i feel sometimes. I get frustrated because of the constant repetition of life. You get up do devotions, have breakfast, do school, then free time, and maybe you do something exiting then you go to bed and start all over in the morning. BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA is how i feel sometimes. like what will i do today? will it be like yesterday just with a different date? oh God, you must understand how i feel if you don't please help me to figure out what my purpose in life is and to get on with whatever it is i was made for. i also have a yearning to walk out the back door and look up and see the stars. But we can not do that. sure you can see a twinkle here and there but not like you can in the country. when you are out in the country you look towards the city and you see a canopy of beaming light hanging over it. i pray for a content spirit. I know other people feel like this sometimes. I am not complaining about my life believe me. I don't see how i could possibly have a better life i just feel helpless i guess. Like i should be doing something to make a difference other than being a student.

sing like a bird

I have been praying alot lately because I'm not sure what God is calling me to do with ministry. I have a great voice God has placed in my chest and i feel he wants me to share it with the world. every one in my family except for my mom plays an instrument so we could be a great band together. I have an overwhelming love for orphan children in china. I think i will end up being a missionary for china as well. I have so many things god has placed on my heart i don't know where to start. I am learning Chinese as i have said before and i cant wait till i am fluent. i will be going to china before the new year and i am very exited!!!!!!!!!!!